Throw A Dryer Sheet Into Your Recovery

People engaging in, or recovering from, addictive behaviors have this amazing aptitude to be hard on themselves—to a fault. Sometimes it is called the “Butt (or another word) Kicking Machine” and I am going to encourage all of us to go ahead and turn that off or at least lower the setting. Here is why: Recovery is tough, it is not just about your will, or trying harder, or being a better person, it is much bigger than that. Most will find that it is a dance of several steps forward and then a couple steps back. I have known a great many people in recovery who have the “butt kicking machine” turned to full blast. The time they spent trying to figure out where they went wrong, what they could have done different, all of the faults in their life that have led up to this point, could be used for moving on. For these people, usually striving for abstinence, the answer is very simple—you used. What caused you to drink? Putting the bottle to your lips and swallowing. I have heard hilarious (but not at the time) stories of shenanigans people have gotten into completely and utterly sober, or sad life events I could never imagine dealt with without a single mood altering substance. They just did not use. Turn the machine off, move on, try again or make a time machine—all good options.

Lots of people have the “American Dream” mentality when it comes to recovery. With hard you can achieve anything. If you aren’t where you want, you haven’t worked seriously enough—do better! Sad? Anxious? Angry? Work harder. Relapse? Shame on you, Work harder. The reality of life and of recovery is that you will be sad, anxious, angry and a whole slew of other emotions. It’s life and those feelings happen. You will not handle all of them the best way. Some people might relapse over them and others might send a regrettable text message. These are the missteps that make us human. Don’t let them feed that loop of “I am a terrible person, I do nothing right, I am going to make more poor choices now.” You are not. Come closer—listen carefully….YOU ARE NOT. The loop of shame, and guilt is a powerful pull and will lead you to more addictive behaviors and then more shame and guilt.

Addictive behaviors actually change the wiring of your brain and it takes a minute, or two, to reset that. Imagine trying to all of sudden begin writing with your non-dominant hand. Would you be mad if you didn’t pick it up in an hour or would you understand that it will take time? What if you got incredibly frustrated and reverted back to your dominant hand—it might be disappointing but it would be understandable. With addictive behaviors the pleasure/anticipation centers—what drives us to do things like eat—is wired to get that fast relief. You have to let the brain rearrange the chemicals and then learn new ways to find pleasure. Be patient.

So how do you do this? How do you learn to be kinder to yourself when the pity pot is so darn comfortable? First, take care of yourself. Try to do basic self-care like showering, eating, and exercising regularly. By treating yourself better you will begin to think more highly of yourself.

Secondly, take a moment every day to have gratitude for things in your life. Some people like keeping a journal to jot down their thoughts of thankfulness while others find a journal to be just something else they “have to do.” Lastly, and probably most importantly, surround yourself with people who inspire and support you, but will question you. You want friends who will help you up and dust you off but aren’t scared to call you out when needed.

Today, where ever you are on the addictive behavior spectrum, take a moment to be kind to yourself. Don’t expect perfection because then you are just expecting disappointment. Remind yourself that you are going through some serious brain and lifestyle changes and that they will guaranteed, take time. Setbacks are just setbacks, keep on the path.